I’m writing about Diane Ackerman’s
story “A Slender Thread” because it strikes the greatest chord with me in the
difficulties of the RA role. As Danielle already summarized in her blog entry,
Ackerman recounts an experience at a suicide hotline, in which she worked on broadening
the possibilities for her caller from simply suicide to choosing to live and
see the great impact she makes in her life. Eventually during the conversation
Ackerman must call the police to save the life of her caller, and later learns
that her caller not only survived the night but also gained employment and
greatly appreciated Ackerman’s intervention to save her life.
Two aspects of this story stuck
out to me: the author’s continued insistence on the importance and strength of
the caller, and the author’s worries about her own inadequacies as a hotline
operator. The primary lesson of providing continuous support relates to the
goal of Personal Development, specifically the goals of empowering first-year
students to “articulate, reflect on and adapt their vision for self,” and to
create behaviors to “support and engender… health and well-being.” People—at every
stage in their lives—often don’t see just how amazing they are and the great
impact they have on others: Ackerman’s caller raised children on her own,
volunteered during a flood, and is a source of immense support for people in
her life. Nevertheless, the hardest critics in our lives are ourselves, and
oftentimes we need other people to remind us that we are all amazing, and that
our beautiful passions and our dreams are valid, worthy, and important. We as
RAs occupy this role of being another source of support and being a constant “Hype
man” for our residents and everyone else in our lives (as practiced in Playfair
the last two years, the Hype Man/Woman shouts words of encouragement and
motivation specific to a person’s talents, and brings an atmosphere of
all-around excitement to the table). We have to be our residents’ biggest fans
and remind them of how awesome they are when they forget and think that their
actions don’t matter.
Another part of this story that I
relate to is the author’s worry about not being the best match for her caller:
“Maybe I could have calmed her
and talked her round? Maybe someone else would have prevailed, someone who can
do this slow tango of life and death with more grace and cunning.”
We reflect on the consequences of
our actions and decisions, and similarly reflect on the effectiveness of our
actions. We wonder whether a different decision would have been better, or
whether the impact we made was large enough. The tricky part of this reflection
is when we wonder if someone else
could have done it better, made the better decision, or just been a better
person for the job. This mental trap of worrying about not being as good as other
leaders, students, RAs, only works against us when we’re trying to motivate
ourselves. I experienced this feeling last year when comparing myself to other
RAs who were more outgoing, spent more time on their floors, and did more
interesting events. What took me out of this funk was realizing that the time
and effort I put into my floor was still awesome,
and that my floor appreciated everything I did, rather than comparing it to
someone who wasn’t their RA. (It also immensely helped that Folashade, one of
my fellow Mudge RAs, would ask me what floor events I was having, and said that
she constantly asked herself, “What would Vivian do?” Folashade was definitely
my Hype Woman and a great source of support on my RA staff.) At the end of the
day we are all living our own lives, and the most important thing we do is put
our best efforts into everything, and be authentic in these efforts: when you
pour yourself into something, the brilliance of your passion will shine through
undoubtedly.